This is me studying.
This is me with a final tomorrow.
This is me across from Lauryl.
This is me freaking out.
This is me unprepared.
This is me feeling burnt like a peice of toast.
This is me being ready for finals to be over.
This is a home where I sleep.
This is a school that stretches my mind like chewed bubble gum.
These are roomates that crack me up laughing.
This is a winter that hasn't snowed.
This is studying time.
This me studying.
This is me saying 'no' to socialness for a week.
This is a party without the people.
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Mr. Appel said that studying is like a wedding cake.
But its one that we work at, we pay for, look at, but can't eat.
At least not til the anniversary. Hopefully there's lots of preservatives.
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It's nice to procrastinate, justifying it by saying "i'm telling people i'm studying". Because I will. Once i stop telling you that I will. It's how I roll. This is the way I live. Like a rap song, only a bit more biblical.
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I am coming home after finals. I am trying my very hardest not to count down. I have to shut my eyes to the light at the end of the tunnel, because if I dare open them I know I will start sprinting to it, when I need to walk and write stuff on the walls. Graffiti. How scholarly.
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I think my mind has gotten much too abstract. Finding applications and ties into things that really dont make sense to other people. But they are so clear to me. My lot in life, to not be understood. Like Emo kids always say.
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I leave you as I found you, only some time later.
3 comments:
What a fun post. Hmmm, even as distressed as it's supposed to sound, you still sound upbeat! how's that?! We're excited for your return, we'll count down so you don't have to......we'll meet you at this end in a few days (I won't say how many though) With love and prayers for your perserverance and thankful that these hard things always end. But alas, at the end of one thing is just the beginning of another (term that is!) At least there's a LONG break this time. mom
It is indeed unfortunate that our social calendars have exploded this week of all weeks.
Happy Holidays! Hooray for when the finals are over!
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